Justina, who I have written about many times, died last week from Cancer. The last time I saw her was the Sunday after New Year’s day. She was sitting in a wheelchair and had lost most of her sight. Her mother told her that I was there. As I reached down to hug her, her smile broadened. Beaming with love, she reached up with her left hand to give me a truly heartfelt hug. I don’t remember feeling so loved. Her physical body may have been dying, yet her spirit was as alive as ever.
I will forever remember the powerful message she delivered, 5 months ago, at her baptism. I quote her words below and present the two songs she spoke of, which are a clear testament that God was speaking through and firmly embracing Justina.
One of my favorite songs says “Teach me to number my days”. The way we have structured our fall schedule is teaching me to focus on relationships and not worry about the stuff that doesn’t matter too much…
The song “No Matter What” by Kerrie Roberts is the sound track for this time in my life. It says:
I’m running back to your promises one more time
Lord that’s all I can hold on to
I gotta say this has taken me by surprise
But nothing surprises You
Before a heartache can ever touch my life
It has to go through Your hands
And even though I keep asking why…
No matter what, I’m gonna love you
No matter what, I’m gonna need you
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what…
God has been faithful to me in my life and I know that He wants to give this same incredible love and faithfulness to everyone. People have said that my story has inspired them. What I really want is for it to be life changing, so that like me, they can experience Jesus living through them.
My life had changed, and I hope through this post, Justina’s message reaches and changes other lives.
Though Justina is no longer here, her message lives on in us. I thank God for loaning her to us for a little while, for showing us what is to be a child of God.