Yesterday I went to my nieces’ high school graduation. As I watched the 300+ plus graduates go up for their degree, I noticed a rather disappointed feeling inside me. I was brought back to my own high school graduation, which I did not attend; and for the first time I can admit, it’s because I was ashamed to go!
In my mind, I was not good enough to get an award of distinction (Ontario Scholar) from Ontario’s provincial government; so by staying away I could hide out with my disappointment and put it out of my mind.
My degree came in the mail some time later, accompanied by an Ontario Scholar certificate and a small cheque. I was so proud! Yet at that time, I did not get what I had missed by not being at my graduation, award or not. I did not get the understanding that just crossing the finish line is enough.
What is important is that we do our best not be the best. No one can always be the best performer. Thinking we have to be the best can scare us so much that we hide out from necessary disappointments, or from the awards that await us.
Have you ever missed something great, because you felt you were not good enough or did not do well enough; yet you later discovered you missed a valuable moment?