This morning, I reluctantly went to see my business manager. I slowly sauntered into her office, my head lower than usual, expecting a well deserved lecture and a kick in the ass. Afterall, I am being paid by the government to develop a business, which would provide live web-based training on soft skills or people skills. The problem is, I have been focusing on everything but live web-based training.
“What is your pitch,” she asked? I stuttered. My speech slurred as I gave her some feeble response that seemed to focus on web development, with slight mention of live web-based training. She knew she caught me. I felt a little embarrassed as she pointed out what I already knew.
I was losing my focus on the talent and training that makes me unique. I was losing my focus on the inspiration, the interpersonal skills, the positive attitudes, the networking skills; all which would be the center of my on-line interactive training. I was losing me.
The truth is, I was starting to fear the passion within me was not good enough to develop a successful business. I was going where I was before my stroke; a time when I would not, cold not, risk embracing the uniqueness within me. I was being swayed by the voice within me that always seem to be whispering:
“You have to go where the money is being offered, even if you have to bury the diva within. You really aren’t all that. Not now.”
I was beginning to listen again. Even though year after year, that God-less voice is still saying, “not now”.
Those self-defeating thoughts almost killed me and was beginning to affect me now. But today, I had to remind myself a six figure income is not my goal especially if it drains the very life out of me. Our focus has to be on what gives us purpose, what is our unique talent, and why we are still here. It is working fully in this area of giftedness that we find joy, purpose and fulfillment.
I don’t need an image make over. I am who I am, even if that means you see the unfocused and sometimes confused me. I just need to focus on allowing the me, that I am here to be, to dominate my life; the me that passionately lives to impact the world by inspiring people to be the best of themselves (at least most of the time).
I make every effort to walk my talk. Therefore, on June 6, at 7 p.m., I am doing an
interactive session on Social Skills and Networking on the Web. This session will include expert guest speakers. So, if you have a webcam and a headset, and would like to participate, let me know. Please note, I will only take a limited number of people.
My image is not one dimensional. Web development is a small part of my image, which you will see sometimes. To that end, I recommend CrownCore Technologies for good quality, cost-effective web design, content development, logo design and graphic design. The focus here is also on positive image development, and being the best of ourselves on the web.
So, who am I? Who do you think I am?